I mean you just always felt "Bad" for not doing more in the field service or at the meetings. Your a MS why can't you be an elder. Your a pubisher.... why can you pioneer?
Then the would always have some poor sister at the assembly married to some drunk unbeliever, who would beat the shit out of her, she would have 6 kids.....she was dying of cancer but she pioneered.....
The speaker would say "Well brothers and sisters if she can do it why can't we?"
I just isn't a "feel good" religion. If didn't feel bad....what was wrong with you?